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Why not?

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My days are so long, so predictable, so filled with mind numbing boredom. 
Back on the fourteenth of February, I was told that my kidneys were on the verge of shutting down – a virtual death sentence.  I was also told what to look for as a sign that the shutdown was complete.  Since then, […]

Once this was our dream house – it was everything we wanted it to be, we were going to live here happily ever after.  I can still see the two of us, checkered tablecloth spread in front of the fireplace, eating our first meal in our very own house, the night we closed – closed […]

Throughout this ordeal, my mind has been replaying times and events from the past –I have been able to revisit people and places long since forgotten, but that come to life once more in my mind’s eye.
I suppose that it’s not unusual, but there is something about it that I would not have expected – […]

I can’t begin to tell you how it annoys me that life goes on at a time like this – at a time where I find myself sitting at home slowly dying.  Is there really anything more important than my demise?
Apparently there is  Apparently the rest of the world is content to pretend that my […]

I am very tired, totally lacking interest in anything, and without any focus – I have nothing I want to say
 

It’s not much of a blog entry, but would you understand if I said that I don’t care?

How is it possible that I grow weaker by the day, and still manage somehow to function?  It would seem impossible to noticeably lose so much strength, and still be on my feet – but it’s true.
Surely I cannot continue this way much longer.
I’ve not felt all that bad for two weeks now, but the […]

We continue to talk – talking about things two people so close should have to talk about.  Sometimes saying things that trigger a torrent of tears.  Sometimes triggering a gale of laughter.
We are trying to live our lives as normally as possible – and for the most part we have succeeded.  But one element has […]

I’ve been neglecting you of late – I didn’t mean to, it just turned out that way.
Sometimes I don’t know what and / or how much I should be sharing – or worse yet, sometimes I just don’t have anything to say.
Sometimes I feel too fragile to talk – pouring out my heart would […]

Of course there will be no funeral service – no viewing, no memorial.  I never attended any while I was alive, I require none on my behalf when I’m gone.
My wish is that I be cremated as soon as possible – and then there are the ashes.  Perhaps a handful out in our backyard, where […]